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Find your way

Life is a way to go

A way to show

Who you are

Want to be star?

Isn’t it far?

Far away from where you stay

Far away from where you play

It is you reaching a goal

Deep in your soul

A whole

A whole you want to fix

A secret you want mix

Mix with your life

To understand your way

And how you survive

It is you going through life

It is you who starts believing

And want to survive.

Go your way and be proud

You are special that is what you have to shout out loud 🙂

Walk through my life

I was here
I was there
I felt lost in the middle of no where

No where
A place i don’t want to be
No where
A place I am not able to see

I got lost
I felt frost

I didn’t know what was going on
I didn’t had known, if I was able to show

But there was something inside me
A little light
A little fight
Something didn’t want to hide

I walked
Step by step
Every day
With no regret

There were people, who helped
A few failed
I am happy to call them friends
Because they were the ones with a helping hand
They mean the world to me
Maybe we don’t have much time to meet

But now it is time to choose my life
Now it time to be happy in my mind

I don’t have to feel guilty anymore
No matter who wants to bring me down
I am the one who decides who is wrong

I am a very sensible and emotional person
That’s why I struggled my whole life with difficult situations

But never the less I fell in love with life
I fell in love with how to survive

I become stronger every day
That’s why I want to tell you that it is your choice to make
Make the decision to love your life
Make your decision to feel happy with your way of life 🙂

Trust and friendship

Trust is given
Trust is taken
You give trust
You take trust

What is trust?
It is something between two persons.
We meet. We talk. We become friends. We trust.
Be careful! It isn’t so easy.
There are ones who abuse your trust

And also ones who choose your trust
The ones, who choose you, are the precious ones
The ones, who choose you, will go with you further than a month.
It is a friend, who found you.
A friend singing a song, which found a harmony with yours

Isn’t it wonderful to go the way of friendship?

Heart vs mind, a deep fight inside

What is the language of our heart? What is the language of our mind?
When we look through the eyes of our hearts there are feelings.
There are no words. It is like you are in a situation, feel something and you cannot explain why you have exactly this feeling.
Your heart creats your feelings and explains them in thoughts.

Our mind does it the other way around.
When we think about something, our minds make us crash with thoughts. These are our thoughtful moments.
All these thoughts lead to feelings.

What is so confusing about both?
I guess both of them can drive us totally crazy, because when we try to find out whether there was at first a thought or a feeling, there might not be answer for some of us. We can not find any difference. It is like what was first on earth the egg or the chicken?
It is difficult to find a connection between both, because they are as similar as different.

My experience is that there are two ways. The first one is you found your balance. But mostly it is like you found it and then you loose it.
So that’s when your second way starts. The second one is this confusion. It feels helpless. You don’t know what you want, who you are. Your thoughts are going in circles.
It seems like you loose yourself completely. That’s the moment where fear begins. I am completely scared of loosing myself. But nevertheless there are times I do.
It is like crying day and night about weeks. But every time when I had lost myself, I was able to rise stronger than before.
Maybe it is this down you need to understand that it is a process and that nothing lasts forever. For example you found yourself in this harmony between heart and mind. It doesn’t mean this moment will last forever.
It is like as soon you found harmony as soon it is gone. It is a process, which will come with us through our whole life.

How do you think about this heart and mind balance?

My world

I am dying. Every down makes me die a little more. How do I survive? How do I fight?
I am doing mistakes again and again. My soul has this bad influence called mind.
Why does my mind drive me crazy? I become a monster.
There is me. There is my soul, which talks to me. My monster me, which hides these spoken words of my soul.
My monster me is this dark side. It has so many fears, which I cannot stand. My monster me teaches me to hate.
Hate is the strongest feeling I have ever had. It lives in symbiosis with love. All the people I love are the ones I hate the most.
All these relationships are a reflection of my broken me. It is me, who hates me. It is me, who loves me.
Special ones love me. I am always the one, who cannot stand it.
My monster me is the part I really want to controll. My monster me, which is a part of my mind, destroys me.
It makes me forget who I am. It influences my feelings. It influences my loneliness. It makes me feel lonely.
It controlls my fear of loneliness. Loneliness is one of the most difficult feelings. When I feel lonely there is nothing to hold on.
Every time I feel lonely it feels like a doomsday. My world has many doomsdays. That is because my feelings are changing from one extrem to another.

I have to fix it. I have to change it. I have to find a way to controll my monster me, because my soul really wants to talk to me, but I do not listen.
It is like having the possibility to listen, but my mind is an egoist and says no. It is a fight deep inside me.
I do not have any options. I have to die a little more inside to find my harmony. I miss my harmony. I decided to destroy it.

Now I have to fix it. I have to change situations in my life. My soul knows who I am. I know who I am. Why do I question myself so hard?
I question myself, because I am scared to be who I am. I have this thought: It is better to be hurt by people, who do never really know who I am, than being hurt by people, who really know who I am.
This thought is useless, because I never make people hurt me. I hurt them and the consequence is that they leave my life.
I know I am able to understand life in a special way. I also know, that I use all my energy to destroy myself, because I do not want to be destroyed by others.
It fits together. I use myself to destroy me. I reach this goal again and again, because I hurt people. This action is the most painful part of me.
I critisize myself. I critizise my actions. I listen to people, who want to help me. I work hard on my inner me to become a beautiful flower.
I know I can rise and become beautiful. It is me, my imperfection, my mind and my soul, which have to become a beautiful rainbow.

Dear future me:
Don’t work to become a beautiful personality! Work harder to become a beautiful personality!
Don’t forget who you are! You know who you are, always remember it!
Dream and have plans for your future.
You are the connection between music and dance. If you want to hide anywhere, you will hide exactly there.
It is the place, where you are the one you are. It is your soul’s home. It is the level, where you find chaos and harmony of your feelings.
All your fears are not able to destroy you, when you find realistic answers to all of them. Write about your fears. Question your fears! An answer will help you in difficult situations.
Keep your strength! Keep your inner fighter! Make it and survive a thousand times! Find the friend, who is closer to you than anyone else. Find your friend, called life!

Mistakes

Every pain changes you.

If we are hurt by someone we will do mistakes. We sometimes project our own pain on others. We say words, which hurt.
It’s like from a person, who was  hurt to a person, who hurts someone. It’s a process, which we do not recognise every time.
It can be helpful to analyse what we have done. We don’t like to do mistakes but it’s important to open our eyes for ours.
If we are able to accept a mistake, which we have done, we will be able to work on ourselves. We will become wiser and go through life in a different way.
On the one hand we listen to our own thoughts about us, on the other hand we listen to the ones we love, who show us mistakes. The ones we love are able to see mistakes we do not recognise. It is very helpful to listen to them. We can think about their words and can decide how we want to go further.
It’s up to us to decide who we want to be.

Another part of me

Looking outside
The weather is changing
From snowy to rainy, to sunny, to windy
It cannot decide how it wants to be
It is like me

I am changing. Every day makes me change. I am not sure, who I want to be.
There are some points I am very proud of, but there are other ones I really hate.
Thinking about myself it is my life’s task. It is often very great, because it makes me move further.
I get hints. I become wiser.
I am like a ball and everyone has the possibility to play with me. There are days I can stand it but there are others, which make me depressed.
I have to learn to get the strength I need to become more and more myself.
I don’t want to be someone, who is so much influenced by others. I also know, that all my life I have been influenced by people.
I didn’t hop the train to start my own story.
It is like seeing all the clouds in the sky. I am one of them, but I am moving on with all the others. I do not look special, because I hide the part, which makes me special.
I hide. I hide myself. I am totally influenced by fears.
I am a shy one. I have never ask myself why, but now I am finding an answer. I learnt that words cannot express, what I want to tell.
Words cannot describe how I feel. Words can hurt and disappoint and everyone understands what he or she wants to understand.
Words have an intention, but are we able to understand what the other one wants to tell us? Of course we try to and we ask the other one, when we do not understand them.
But I do not get it. I really try to become friends with words. It is hard for me, because I am sensible and sometimes it hurts. Words hurt.
It is my mission to find a way, which makes me lucky together with words. Maybe it is a little bit strange, because I am a writer as well. But it is different. Writing is different than talking to people.
Writing is my creativity. It helps me a lot to feel more comfortable with words. There are special ones, who also make it easier for me. I am learning that of course it matters what had happened in the past, but I also know that it is up to me how my life goes on.
I am learning and it is great to learn. I love working on my personality. I do not want to become perfect. Perfection is nothing I want to reach.
I am happy to accept more and more that I am supposed to do mistakes. I am able to work on my personality I am not a bad one. There might be some thoughts, which make me think that I am. But thoughts are moments and moments pass.
It is me. There are times I am not able to see. There are others I see everything. Both are important. Both have to be stand. I am going through this alone, but also hand in hand with the ones I love.

Frustration

You can be frustrated in many ways.
Frustration at school, university, work
Frustration in relationships
Frustration at your favorite activities
Or frustrated because of yourself

These downs of frustration when you think: There isn’t anything anymore, which could make it worse than it is right now.
A possibility is to find a way to make it better somehow.
Ways. What kind of ways?
1 .You’re feeling okay with it and aren’t doing anything. A way, which is too easy, isn’t it?
2. You’re feeling thoughtful and try to find out what’s going on. Another way a little more difficult but more effective, isn’t it?

We have the choice between two ways. There are days when you choose the first one, because you don’t feel strong enough to choose the second one. There might be days when you feel sad. Days when you’re mad. You and I know that these days aren’t the end. They are our tasks, which teach us to get the strength to choose the second way.
Working on the way how we’re thinking about us makes it possible to get over frustration. We cannot influence what’s going on around us. There might be many people/ situations, who/ which make us angry, sad, frustrated and/ or disappointed. We cannot change them but we can decide how much they badly influence us.

I made an experience yesterday. This fact a human isn’t a machine it’s logical but sometimes I forget about it. I went to my dancing lesson. I’m doing my very best every time, but there are days when nothing works. There was this situation when someone told me that I had to take care of myself, because they needed me. These words make me thoughtful right now, because I was so angry, disappointed and frustrated of myself that I forgot about the fact that I’m of course dancing for myself but I’m also a part of a group, who needs me. I learnt that it’s okay to be frustrated and to have a bad day but the most important fact is that I should never forget about why I’m dancing. It’s because of passion, fun, fascination and the art to connect moves with music.

Frustration will always be a part in our lives, but we can decide how it treats us. We can learn to find ways, which make it a little easier to get over it. Everyone has to find her/his own way.

Love and emotional addiction

Every day
Another way

Walking along
Singing our song

Meeting new faces
They give us hints and traces

We want to know some
Others not
We choose some
We’re not going on spot

Addicted isn’t it bad?
Addicted a way to feel mad?

Yes and no
I’ll show

Yes, because if you were emotional addicted, you’d be think: There is no choice to live without this person.
No, because we’re all addicted in a way to the ones we love.
It’s up to how we handle with it
To find a way to make it fit

Loving and feeling emotional addicted
Two feelings, which are so close to each other, that there doesn’t seem to be a bound. There is one but it’s hard to define it.

I’m not anyone, who knows exactly how to handle with it
It’s so difficult
To make it fit

What I want to let you know:
The best way to find out what’s going on with yourself is: You have to look at what’s happening with yourself, whether you’re badly influenced by addiction or not. If you recognise that you’re badly influenced, you’ll be able to change your thoughts about this person you’re addicted to. It’s possible! It’s not easy, but that’s life and we can make it to find a way through all the tasks life gives us.

Never forget about believing in yourself!
If you want to, you’ll make it
You’re the one, who have the chance to take it!